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Selalunya kita tengok budak-budak berbekalkan resit derma di pasaraya mudah jer dapat RM10 berbekalkan ayat lembut dan muka bersih (bukan la nak merendahkan budak-budak tersebut, but lumrah diri ini serba kekurangan tak mudah percaya, haishhh, nak buang camne ntah perangai buruk yang satu ni). So for me, better give in to places/person which we can go and give it ourself.

Bulan ini aku and rakan-rakan bercadang nak buat one more event for rumah anak-anak Rohingya. Last time event was superb! Suka buat aktiviti macam ni (last time masa U jer, lepas tu hampehhhh). 

Event ni kitorang buat sekadar memberi sumbangan ikhlas setakat mana yang mampu, since ini antara rakan-rakan rapat jer. Alhamdulillah tak lama lepas itu, ada insan lain yang sudi memberi selain pemberian ikhlas barang-barang dan wang, bertambah rezeki budak-budak Rohingya tersebut. 

Atas permintaan Puan Pengetua and Ustaz, aku terpaksa besarkan watermark and cannot put in any address or contact number. Why? Because Puan and Ustaz tak pernah meminta-minta, tapi ada yang memanipulasi gambar-gambar and info untuk kepentingan sendiri (tak sangka ada jugak spesies gini, huh!).

Hope to give smile to those kids again~!

Last month on 16th January 2013, eagerly I ordered online from a camera dealer blogger, which they also have shop in UKM. I've ordered on 16th and the parcel arrived a day after. Superfast delivery! (FYI it's within Selangor, so yeah, kalau lambat tu memang teruk la service Poslaju).

I was so eager that I forgot to snap how the dealer wrap the parcel. It was good. Wrapped with bubble plastic wrap, PLUS a fragile sticker on the parcel. That blogger sure put some effort, and I super luv it! You've got my trust on first look.

So yeah, I did some camwhoring, and did took some other pictures which is not like pictures at all (gambar jadi hitam la, kelabu la, coz mencuba function kamera, and so banyak la try and error). This is my baby, so when are you going to have one? Let's have fun!

Everyday I go to work by train (LRT). Slalu dalam tren aktiviti biasa kita tengok orang dengar lagu, main handset and doozing off (coz off penat balik keje). Dalam tren aku lebih suka berdiri (sebab di office asyik duduk jer sampai dah kematu bontot). I like to stand beside tren's door. Why? Because I like to view environment (like sunset, car moving, etc). And one time I saw beautiful sunset so I couldn't resist, I manage to snap some shot from my lame Blackberry.

I have the habit of looking around everything around me (and believe because of my habit of looking around, people will look at me back, and give a quick look like 'ehhh? dia ni tengok-tengok ni kenapa ek? ada apa2 ke dekat kasut/muka/seluar/baju aku?'). Dah jadi habit sejak sekolah menengah sebab kadet (sebab kadet???? Ape kaitan???). Dalam kadet kalau kau tak alert memang sakit la badan or telinga kena denda or kena sound, so sebab tu la aku memang mudah distracted by moving object or hear anything (sangat annoying ok, and I don't like it myself, tapi dah tak boleh ubah dahhh, huhuhuuu). OK, HALT!! Tersasar dah point utama.


Then last Thursay, 17.01.2013 my collegue ajak lepak for the last time (my friend ni dapat kerja baru and ntah bila pulak la boleh jumpa lepas ni). So, another friend ajak cuba burger bakar area Damansara Damai. When we got there to order, boy so many fancy names for the burgers. Spongebob Patty la, Mr Krab la, Krab Patty la, semua tema2 from Spongebob. Fuhhh~!! Aku nak order sebut nama burger pon rasa kelakar (sebab teringat lagak kartun Spongebob).


My order was Krab Patty regular (if I'm not mistaken). Yang ada 2 chicken ham tu is my order. Jenis daging pulak ada berjenis jugak, ada arnab, rusa, kambing, unta, and of course regular ayam and daging. Thanks to my friend yang dapat kerja baru tu, I've spent zero that night (wehuuuu~!! Moga Allah murahkan rezeki kau Farid). Maybe dia memang niat nak belanja semua orang so he paid for ALL of our order yang 8 people ni (Thanks so much Farid, nanti kau keluar training, belanja kitorang lagi ek? Ahakss~) It might not seen so tempting tapi sedap la burger tu! Who ever wanted to try, cari di Damansara Damai, betul-betul berhadapan McD (and ada 7Eleven sebelah McD tu .... sorry la tatau nama jalan, hahahahaa). Hope to try burger tempat lain pulak~! =)

Hari ni aku dapat email from a trader that sell camera. She said kamera dah ada stock. Yeaayyy~!! Happy me! What camera? Sorry, it's not Lumix, YET. Lambat lagi laa baby Lumix sampai ke tangan ni. 

Well, it's just some kamera mainan for me (I think some can already guess what this is), but I think it will be fun (sampai satu tahap dah boring, if there is any). I'm going to make payment today, then after 2-3 hari patut dh sampai parcel then I'll make another post, my new baby: not new but hot stuff!

SMK Pekula Jaya, Tikam Batu, Kedah. Sekolah ini banyak meninggalkan kenangan. Kenangan indah atau buruk dahulunya, kini tinggal kenangan indah. Together with friends is the most memorable of all. 

12.01.2013 jam 9.30PM aku mendapat berita buruk yang seorang rakan sekelas kembali pulang ke Rahmatullah. Bergenang air mata kenangkan Allahyarham. Memori di sekolah tergamit semula, kenangan dengan Allahyarham. Moga Allah mencucuri rahmat Allahyarham dan ditempatkan di kalangan orang-orang yang beriman. 

Al-Fatihah untuk sahabat, Allahyarham Mohd. Hafizi.

:: credit: foto dari website SMK Pekula Jaya ::

Yesterday my housemate tiba-tiba sahut nama aku, nada gaya nak marah (why? Apa salah aku ko nak marah-marah ni!). Then she show me some paper. Alhamdulillah laa aku belum ada kereta sendiri. Rupanya housemate aku nak cerita dia kena speedcam AES, at Teluk Intan (oke, terus tak panas hati, ntah kenapa aku sensitip sangat akhir-akhir ni, period dah over, hurmmm). 

Biasa la, as ladies, many women are so careless, nasib laa aku belum ada kereta atas nama sendiri, tak la rasa bebal sangat. But I think, I'm one of the cautious driver among my friends (aku lebih rela habiskan duit dengan  shopping, makan or jalan-jalan dari terpaksa bayar tiket saman, wohoooo). 

RM300 is a lot! She told me that she was driving in the middle lane, and she was in a hurry, so she shift to the fast lane, which she was wondering why was every car keep staying in middle or left lane and no car in fast lane. Oh well, now she got the answer, and she's regretting it. 

Because of aku tak ada kereta sendiri, aku buat dunno je la pasal speedcam or AES. I treat person's stuff carefully, sebab aku tak nak la rosak or orang tak percaya, but I'm not sure if I have my own =P . But since my housemate dah kena, I was curious, ye la, highway kot, takkan 90km dah kena saman, but rules is rules, so baru la aku tau bila aku search di internet ( I know, benda dah berkurun aku jer baru tau sekarang? I'm not neglecting, just that I don't think I have to know it, yet, until later, hahahhaha). Tak tahu la, 90km tu, bagi aku macam too low la for highway speed, but then again, jalan dekat Perak sana tu agak bahaya sket, so memang la menyusahkan, lagi-lagi kalau tengah kejar masa, but however, berani buat berani tanggung.

I can't help it when it comes to camera. I'm not a photographer, and I don't have the skill or creativity in taking photos, but I LOVE to play around with camera (^,^). A LOT.

I like Nikon's but sekarang ni I really can't take my eyes of Lumix. Lumix kegilaan aku agak menarik, but too EXPENSIVE untuk aku (tahan air liur je la tiap kali nampak). However al-kisah ni nak jadikan aim (for azam 2013, hukhuk ntah dapat ke tak), but kata azam kan, so I add in my azam wishlist for 2013: Lumix DMC GX-1. 

What I love about this camera is it's ISO can reach up to 12800 (wow! super awesome). Then it's got a touchscreen LCD, which you can use to touch up to focus your preferred focus point (how easy is that). Of course the size is small than regular DSLR, mudah nak jaga, mudah nak sumbat dalam beg (biasa la pompuan, semua barang nak sumbat dalam beg). Then got 16megapixel. Errr, what more ehhh? I'm suck at explaining camera technical stuff, so look at this awesome camera yourself (it's awesome from my point). For more details, do look into Panasonic Lumix website.

Finally 2013 have come. Happy New Year~!

Make a bucket of wish list, strive to achieve, don't think as it's impossible.

We're the one to make it impossible or possible (^,~)

I dont seek for simpathy

A cheap feeling that toring pride

I dont seek for simpathy

Far away from fonding atttention

As burden be on me as if gain through thee mind

I dont seek for simpathy

As its not in my gain nor my vain

Never will be.

I dont seek for sympathy

As respect and pride linger in me never to be stomp

BUT once crumble

Mind start to shuffle

Heart start to waver

Still pride stood straight

Holding in thoughts

Holding in tears

Once be touch fall out the tears

Dont sympathy, never put attention

my heart still tumble, and start to fall apart, and apart.

:: Credit :: Copyright of photo/photos is not mine, but belongs to respective owner/owners ::

:: source :: Google ::

I'm still in city, tapi di mana-mana pun tiap pagi raya feeling 'aura' pagi raya tetap terasa, and waking up this morning, keluar sahaja dari rumah terus terasa hening sangat pagi raya ni. 

Hari ni di office once clock hit 5-5.30pm, floor bising tiba-tiba bila semua sibuk wish raya sesama rakan kerja. Before this aku sendiri minta untuk kerja pada hari raya. But this year bila aku betul-betul nak cuti, cuti ditolak. Kejam gila aku rasa. Dah penat fight tapi tak dapat. Hilang respect. First time in my life, aku rasa sayu sangat bila semua orang dapat cuti, dapat balik kampung, dapat jumpa kawan-kawan and family, tapi aku sangkut tengah-tengah bandar konkrit ni. Sekarang pon dah rasa bergetar dada sebak, ntah macam mana la malam raya nanti bila takbir raya berkumandang. 

But what to do, everything in life have a reason, DIA tentukan mesti bersebab. Kalau DIA tarik something, mesti DIA beri something, and if we hold in and be patient, HE'll give extra in advance, right? So siapa yang tak dapat cuti raya macam aku, don't be sad to much. Braise yourself and ingat ada sebab untuk setiap yang DIA lakukan =)

Bila tengok kawan-kawan happy, tersenyum gembira nak bercuti raya, I feel happy for them, sincerely. Selamat Hari Raya friends and buddies~! Hopefully raya korang filled with joy and laughter.

Oh my!, I've got BIG problem. Aku ni baru lagi dalam Google+, so I was exploring, and I didn't know that kalau terdelete photo's dalam Google+, blogspot post features will be effected also. So aku ada ter-delete and men-delete (excuse me for my bahasa suka hati) beberapa duplicated photos this morning. 

Sekarang bila baru nak buka blog, all my post yang bergambar dah tak ada foto (which I did delete unknowingly). Okee, I know, noob me.

*Sigh* (mengeluh pulak, double work nak adjust everything).

Even aku ni blogger 'jalanan' jer, but just need to say:

Phoenixarruc is under maintenance

Bila aku boring, aku suka main Photoshop. making my photos collections more 'elegant', nampak cun mata memandang but not too fake-with-edit. I'm sooooo lack of creativity when it comes to blogging. Sebab tu aku jarang post. Actually it's a waste not to blog. Since aku tak ada idea, I thought baik aku senyap dari aku merapu meraban something not my interest. 

Now, I'm beginning to change my header, but aku yang tersangat la TAK kreatif ni tak ada idea cun, maka keluar la header huduh di atas. Ikutkan ada jer adik aku boleh cantikkan header aku. But a big NO, I want to do it with my own effort. 

*Sigh* (melangut kejap depan laptop, ntah bila nak dapat idea).

Just would like to show some wonderful nights in Melaka - river cruise ...

There are times when our heart waver

There are moments when we question ourself

There are minutes when our mind goes blank;

and our soul start to give in to Despair

Lost in time

Lost in our aim

Lost in our belief

Lost in our path

Lost in gripping the rope which once leading the way

It's like when tears are falling apart in rains

Getting washed up without trace

Feeling like sinking in the depth of dark

Seeing the dim light in darkness but helpless with no strength

'Lost in time is like tears in rain' ....

Persefahaman antara manusia penting, so for that perlunya perbincangan semua pihak. Thus what we need is duduk beramai + bincang. However kata sepakat tidak dapat dicapai jugak kalau ada antaranya yang terlalu mementingkan diri, tidak memikirkan pihak lain. Dalam hati mungkin pikir 'biarlah, asal aku tak rugi, sama-sama tanggung lebih baik dari aku saja yang rugi lebih sket', padahal keadilan is base on what we get and what we give. 

Persefahaman jugak tidak mungkin dapat dicapai andai ada antaranya yang terlalu give in, terlalu memikirkan pihak lain sehingga ada yang pijak kepala. Manusia mungkin mendiamkan diri tapi dari situ kepercayaan dan give and take will start to shatter. At this point, sifat mementingkan diri will be thicker day by day, and trust will start to break, and from this point, bond will shattered totally ..... 

Just some petty thought .....

Ada satu website untuk kesihatan dicadangkan oleh kawan aku, cause by my issue last week. Last week aku terjumpa kawan yg dah lama tak jumpa at my new workplace. So since dah lama tak jumpa, first thing yang dia tegur, "wahh dah makin comel awak ni kan, cantik", oppss blush me, ahaks!.

But then, dia tegur 2nd thing, with good intention he said, "awak, saya tengok awak makin bahagia, dah berisi dari dulu (with big grin)", DARN! Dalam diam dia kata aku berisi, hahahaha... Aku tak ada la terasa, but tak sangka direct dia nak tegur kan, but I like his way, soft way, muahaha... Dah nama perempuan, mesti la sensitif bab ni. But I do appreciate it. At least ada gak point untuk aku exercise.

So salah sorang kawan aku ni, lelaki jugak who care the most of his health then suggest me this website, where I can learn how to exercise, either simple one or hard one. So aku pon try la tengok website ni, then I find it's very useful! Seriously, tak perlu nak ke gim pon ko boleh build up body. Tak perlu alat-alat asal ada semangat. Tak perlu pon 1 jam di gim, setakat 10 minit sehari pun dah cukup.

If you think it's a waste, seriously your wrong~! Just go and see yourself this website
Passion4Profession, you'll see that is perfect!

These days, I've got more of free time to spent with things I love to =). So, one of it, I started to watch Korean drama again. Hahahhaha, so what? If boys prefer to play or choose keyboard and joystick over girlfriend, a girl/woman is still a female who love to shed tears and laugh crazily in front of pc XP .

Just now I've finish watching Korean drama "Scent of A Woman". It's last year drama, about a woman (Lee Youn Jae) who suddenly had been diagnose cancer, and will only live for about 4-6 month. BUT what I'm pointing is not about the drama story, but the positive content of this drama. Youn Jae, knowing that she had less time and more things to do, she did lists of what she wanted to do. It might seems cheesy, or mushy, but there's lot more to it:

1.  Make my mum smile once a day
2.  Revenge against those who harassed me
3.  Learn tango
4.  Whatever I want, eat and wear, I won’t hold back
5.  Try on a wedding dress
6.  Have a date with Junsu!
7.  Go cycling along the coastline
8.  Be just like the heroine in a movie for a day
9.  Find my first love

10. Sing a love song with the one I love
11. Receive a proposal that all women in the world would die for
12. Contribute whenever I can
13. Get my mom remarried
14. To have teacher forgive me
15. To be a meaningful person to somebody
16. To leave the traces of my life

17. To leave a real cool impression in front of people I know
18. To get kissed while having a White Christmas
19. Do everything with the person I love
20. And lastly, close my eyes in the arms of the person I love…

It's a venom to our soul, if anyone would happen to have the same or similar issue. Not the disease that is painful, but the fact that a person not been able to fullfill his/her desire; future plan; or dream. It's easy to say, but at least this drama taught me the value to live life to the fullest! We may breath for until we age to hundreds of year, but we also may live for as far as now.

Thinking that life may end in a matter of time, doesn't mean we have to grief and regretting. Cheer up! Do what you want to do, be what you want to be, and have what you want to possess. If all that you want to do have been fullfill, doesn't mean you would have to stop, then start to wait for death. Instead, list and think of the next thing you haven't done, and do it as long you have the time with you. 

Same for other person, even if death is not around the corner, live to the fullest also! Be positive! Make your life meaningful. Don't hesitate, don't regret, but take full sincerity in everything that you do, then you won't have much to regret.

Live Life to the Fullest!

ARGGGhhhHHHHHHhhh~!!!

          Mood: TENSION. Serabut. Bila tension, segala moral dan adab boleh runtuh kalau emosi menguasai akal. Bukan setakat maki hamun, segala english curse pon boleh terbit kalau emo dah tahap radioaktif. Mudahnya untuk orang yang mudah berkata-kata, tak payah tahan mulut and perasaan terus kuar 'kata-kata mutiara'. Kalau keluar jer, skali dengar macam damak beracun - sakit and ngilu serta merta! At least orang-orang ini tak makan hati. Apa yang keluar, itulah yang jujur. Even bunyi kasar, but they don't hide anything. 

          Kalau orang yang mampu kawal perasaan, of course la logik akal dan moral plus adab dia maintain seiring, tak dikaburi emosi. But it's hard for them. Sebabnya even seseorang itu mampu kawal emosi, berfikir dengan tenang, tapi kalau dah berkehendak dan punyai kepentingan, mesti orang itu tetap berperang dengan emosinya. Yang ini paling sakit! Sebabkan akalnya menentukan walau marah or emosi, moral mengatasi segalanya, so jadilah dia sebagai manusia beradap. Tapi, perasaan dalaman dia, hebat berperang.

That's why women normally never hides her feelings as it is a pressure to her soul and mind. It's burdensome if not letting every single thought and emotion out by either talking or one that man hates the most, crying.

So kalo kita tension , apa yang kita boleh buat yerkk?? Ada caranya kalau nak cuba:

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Eksperimen make-up...
Kebaikannya: haa leh cuba teknik-teknik ekstrem. Masa ni tak apa kalau make comot macam badut pon, housemate confirm tak kata apa-apa.

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Dobi pakaian manually.
Kebaikannya: boleh laa kurangkan kuantiti baju terpakai dalam bakul baju. Masa sental baju dengan berus tu, anggap jer tu muka orang yang dimarahkan tu. Mesti bersih tip top baju-baju tu. Kalau rasa nak gusti, haaa baling jer baju tu gaya macam orang India dulu-dulu handwash baju. Ataupun pijak-pijak terus macam tengah pijak orang tu. At least marah hilang, tak kena jel and boleh mantapkan body sekaligus, amacam bagus tak?

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