I Don't Seek Simpathy ...

Monday, August 20, 2012 Xarruc 2 Comments





I dont seek for simpathy
A cheap feeling that toring pride

I dont seek for simpathy
Far away from fonding atttention
As burden be on me as if gain through thee mind

I dont seek for simpathy
As its not in my gain nor my vain
Never will be.

I dont seek for sympathy
As respect and pride linger in me never to be stomp
BUT once crumble
Mind start to shuffle
Heart start to waver
Still pride stood straight
Holding in thoughts
Holding in tears
Once be touch fall out the tears

Dont sympathy, never put attention
my heart still tumble, and start to fall apart, and apart.


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Salam Aidilfitri

Sunday, August 19, 2012 Xarruc 0 Comments



I'm still in city, tapi di mana-mana pun tiap pagi raya feeling 'aura' pagi raya tetap terasa, and waking up this morning, keluar sahaja dari rumah terus terasa hening sangat pagi raya ni. 
Kalau di kampung mesti lebih terasa, dengan pelita panjut berderetan dan bunyi kokokan ayam. Indahnya!

Hope lebaran semua bermakna and penuh keindahan.
Salam Aidilfitri to all bloggers and also happy holidays walau di mana pun,
moga lebaran semua penuh dengan kenangan!


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2 Day to Raya 2012...

Thursday, August 16, 2012 Xarruc 2 Comments




Hari ni di office once clock hit 5-5.30pm, floor bising tiba-tiba bila semua sibuk wish raya sesama rakan kerja. Before this aku sendiri minta untuk kerja pada hari raya. But this year bila aku betul-betul nak cuti, cuti ditolak. Kejam gila aku rasa. Dah penat fight tapi tak dapat. Hilang respect. First time in my life, aku rasa sayu sangat bila semua orang dapat cuti, dapat balik kampung, dapat jumpa kawan-kawan and family, tapi aku sangkut tengah-tengah bandar konkrit ni. Sekarang pon dah rasa bergetar dada sebak, ntah macam mana la malam raya nanti bila takbir raya berkumandang. 

But what to do, everything in life have a reason, DIA tentukan mesti bersebab. Kalau DIA tarik something, mesti DIA beri something, and if we hold in and be patient, HE'll give extra in advance, right? So siapa yang tak dapat cuti raya macam aku, don't be sad to much. Braise yourself and ingat ada sebab untuk setiap yang DIA lakukan =)

Bila tengok kawan-kawan happy, tersenyum gembira nak bercuti raya, I feel happy for them, sincerely. Selamat Hari Raya friends and buddies~! Hopefully raya korang filled with joy and laughter.



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:: source :: Google ::

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BIG problem *SIGH*

Wednesday, August 15, 2012 Xarruc 0 Comments





Oh my!, I've got BIG problem. Aku ni baru lagi dalam Google+, so I was exploring, and I didn't know that kalau terdelete photo's dalam Google+, blogspot post features will be effected also. So aku ada ter-delete and men-delete (excuse me for my bahasa suka hati) beberapa duplicated photos this morning. 

Sekarang bila baru nak buka blog, all my post yang bergambar dah tak ada foto (which I did delete unknowingly). Okee, I know, noob me.

*Sigh* (mengeluh pulak, double work nak adjust everything).

Even aku ni blogger 'jalanan' jer, but just need to say:

Phoenixarruc is under maintenance



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Header Blur ...

Monday, August 13, 2012 Xarruc 0 Comments




Bila aku boring, aku suka main Photoshop. making my photos collections more 'elegant', nampak cun mata memandang but not too fake-with-edit. I'm sooooo lack of creativity when it comes to blogging. Sebab tu aku jarang post. Actually it's a waste not to blog. Since aku tak ada idea, I thought baik aku senyap dari aku merapu meraban something not my interest. 

Now, I'm beginning to change my header, but aku yang tersangat la TAK kreatif ni tak ada idea cun, maka keluar la header huduh di atas. Ikutkan ada jer adik aku boleh cantikkan header aku. But a big NO, I want to do it with my own effort. 

*Sigh* (melangut kejap depan laptop, ntah bila nak dapat idea).

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Lagu yang Merdu ...

Sunday, August 12, 2012 Xarruc 0 Comments






Right now I'm in office, working on weekend, sangat tenang bila pegi kerja jalan lengang, balik pon tak jem macam usual workdays. While doing my works, somehow aku dengar member kerja aku melagukan ayat suci Al-Quran. Merdu sangat suara dia. Mendayu.  Rasa nak jer duduk lebih dekat. Aku jadi kagum kejap, sebab sambil buat kerja, dia mendengar dan membacakan ayat suci Quran, sedangkan dia gadis cina mualaf. 

Rasa kecil sangat jika nak dibandingkan dengan dia. Tidak semua boleh menjadi insan istimewa seperti dia. Seburuk mana manusia di mata kasar, mampu lagi menjadi insan sehebat dia selagi ada keinginan. 





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Once In Melaka

Sunday, August 12, 2012 Xarruc 2 Comments


Once In Melaka - River Cruise


Just would like to show some wonderful nights in Melaka - river cruise ...

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Lost in Time ...

Sunday, April 15, 2012 Xarruc 0 Comments







There are times when our heart waver
There are moments when we question ourself
There are minutes when our mind goes blank;
and our soul start to give in to Despair
Lost in time
Lost in our aim
Lost in our belief
Lost in our path
Lost in gripping the rope which once leading the way
It's like when tears are falling apart in rains
Getting washed up without trace
Feeling like sinking in the depth of dark
Seeing the dim light in darkness but helpless with no strength
'Lost in time is like tears in rain' ....



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Luahan: Persefahaman

Saturday, March 31, 2012 Xarruc 0 Comments


Persefahaman antara manusia penting, so for that perlunya perbincangan semua pihak. Thus what we need is duduk beramai + bincang. However kata sepakat tidak dapat dicapai jugak kalau ada antaranya yang terlalu mementingkan diri, tidak memikirkan pihak lain. Dalam hati mungkin pikir 'biarlah, asal aku tak rugi, sama-sama tanggung lebih baik dari aku saja yang rugi lebih sket', padahal keadilan is base on what we get and what we give. 


Persefahaman jugak tidak mungkin dapat dicapai andai ada antaranya yang terlalu give in, terlalu memikirkan pihak lain sehingga ada yang pijak kepala. Manusia mungkin mendiamkan diri tapi dari situ kepercayaan dan give and take will start to shatter. At this point, sifat mementingkan diri will be thicker day by day, and trust will start to break, and from this point, bond will shattered totally ..... 


Just some petty thought .....

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Build Up Your Body!

Sunday, February 19, 2012 Xarruc 0 Comments





Ada satu website untuk kesihatan dicadangkan oleh kawan aku, cause by my issue last week. Last week aku terjumpa kawan yg dah lama tak jumpa at my new workplace. So since dah lama tak jumpa, first thing yang dia tegur, "wahh dah makin comel awak ni kan, cantik", oppss blush me, ahaks!.


But then, dia tegur 2nd thing, with good intention he said, "awak, saya tengok awak makin bahagia, dah berisi dari dulu (with big grin)", DARN! Dalam diam dia kata aku berisi, hahahaha... Aku tak ada la terasa, but tak sangka direct dia nak tegur kan, but I like his way, soft way, muahaha... Dah nama perempuan, mesti la sensitif bab ni. But I do appreciate it. At least ada gak point untuk aku exercise.


So salah sorang kawan aku ni, lelaki jugak who care the most of his health then suggest me this website, where I can learn how to exercise, either simple one or hard one. So aku pon try la tengok website ni, then I find it's very useful! Seriously, tak perlu nak ke gim pon ko boleh build up body. Tak perlu alat-alat asal ada semangat. Tak perlu pon 1 jam di gim, setakat 10 minit sehari pun dah cukup.


If you think it's a waste, seriously your wrong~! Just go and see yourself this website
Passion4Profession, you'll see that is perfect!


:: Credit :: Copyright of photo/photos is not mine, but belongs to respective owner/owners ::
:: source :: Google ::

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Live Life to the Fullest!

Tuesday, February 14, 2012 Xarruc 0 Comments









These days, I've got more of free time to spent with things I love to =). So, one of it, I started to watch Korean drama again. Hahahhaha, so what? If boys prefer to play or choose keyboard and joystick over girlfriend, a girl/woman is still a female who love to shed tears and laugh crazily in front of pc XP .


Just now I've finish watching Korean drama "Scent of A Woman". It's last year drama, about a woman (Lee Youn Jae) who suddenly had been diagnose cancer, and will only live for about 4-6 month. BUT what I'm pointing is not about the drama story, but the positive content of this drama. Youn Jae, knowing that she had less time and more things to do, she did lists of what she wanted to do. It might seems cheesy, or mushy, but there's lot more to it:


1.  Make my mum smile once a day
2.  Revenge against those who harassed me
3.  Learn tango
4.  Whatever I want, eat and wear, I won’t hold back
5.  Try on a wedding dress
6.  Have a date with Junsu!
7.  Go cycling along the coastline
8.  Be just like the heroine in a movie for a day
9.  Find my first love
10. Sing a love song with the one I love
11. Receive a proposal that all women in the world would die for
12. Contribute whenever I can
13. Get my mom remarried
14. To have teacher forgive me
15. To be a meaningful person to somebody
16. To leave the traces of my life
17. To leave a real cool impression in front of people I know
18. To get kissed while having a White Christmas
19. Do everything with the person I love
20. And lastly, close my eyes in the arms of the person I love…


It's a venom to our soul, if anyone would happen to have the same or similar issue. Not the disease that is painful, but the fact that a person not been able to fullfill his/her desire; future plan; or dream. It's easy to say, but at least this drama taught me the value to live life to the fullest! We may breath for until we age to hundreds of year, but we also may live for as far as now.


Thinking that life may end in a matter of time, doesn't mean we have to grief and regretting. Cheer up! Do what you want to do, be what you want to be, and have what you want to possess. If all that you want to do have been fullfill, doesn't mean you would have to stop, then start to wait for death. Instead, list and think of the next thing you haven't done, and do it as long you have the time with you. 


Same for other person, even if death is not around the corner, live to the fullest also! Be positive! Make your life meaningful. Don't hesitate, don't regret, but take full sincerity in everything that you do, then you won't have much to regret.


Live Life to the Fullest!


:: Credit :: Copyright of photo/photos is not mine, but belongs to respective owner/owners ::
:: source :: Google ::

Xarruc says: Sorry for my poor english, ehee, peace (^,~)Y



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TENSION

Tuesday, January 31, 2012 Xarruc 0 Comments






ARGGGhhhHHHHHHhhh~!!!


          Mood: TENSION. Serabut. Bila tension, segala moral dan adab boleh runtuh kalau emosi menguasai akal. Bukan setakat maki hamun, segala english curse pon boleh terbit kalau emo dah tahap radioaktif. Mudahnya untuk orang yang mudah berkata-kata, tak payah tahan mulut and perasaan terus kuar 'kata-kata mutiara'. Kalau keluar jer, skali dengar macam damak beracun - sakit and ngilu serta merta! At least orang-orang ini tak makan hati. Apa yang keluar, itulah yang jujur. Even bunyi kasar, but they don't hide anything. 


          Kalau orang yang mampu kawal perasaan, of course la logik akal dan moral plus adab dia maintain seiring, tak dikaburi emosi. But it's hard for them. Sebabnya even seseorang itu mampu kawal emosi, berfikir dengan tenang, tapi kalau dah berkehendak dan punyai kepentingan, mesti orang itu tetap berperang dengan emosinya. Yang ini paling sakit! Sebabkan akalnya menentukan walau marah or emosi, moral mengatasi segalanya, so jadilah dia sebagai manusia beradap. Tapi, perasaan dalaman dia, hebat berperang.


That's why women normally never hides her feelings as it is a pressure to her soul and mind. It's burdensome if not letting every single thought and emotion out by either talking or one that man hates the most, crying.


So kalo kita tension , apa yang kita boleh buat yerkk?? Ada caranya kalau nak cuba:

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Naik turun tangga sampai kaki menggeletar...
Kebaikannya: dapat menghilangkan lemak berkilo-kilo anda sekurang-kurangnya  420gram.

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Tukar-tukar channel tv berkali-kali...
Kebaikannya: kalau ada mamat hensem or awek cun boleh la cuci mata kejap, tak la teringat sangat benda yang dimarah. Paling tak pon, boleh hempuk remote ke dinding. Takyah la guna henpon, mahal sangat, guna jer remote, RM5 pon dapat yang baru.

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Eksperimen make-up...
Kebaikannya: haa leh cuba teknik-teknik ekstrem. Masa ni tak apa kalau make comot macam badut pon, housemate confirm tak kata apa-apa.

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Dobi pakaian manually.
Kebaikannya: boleh laa kurangkan kuantiti baju terpakai dalam bakul baju. Masa sental baju dengan berus tu, anggap jer tu muka orang yang dimarahkan tu. Mesti bersih tip top baju-baju tu. Kalau rasa nak gusti, haaa baling jer baju tu gaya macam orang India dulu-dulu handwash baju. Ataupun pijak-pijak terus macam tengah pijak orang tu. At least marah hilang, tak kena jel and boleh mantapkan body sekaligus, amacam bagus tak?

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:: Credit :: Copyright of photo/photos is not mine, but belongs to respective owner/owners ::
:: source :: Google ::

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A Person...

Friday, January 27, 2012 Xarruc 0 Comments




"Talking much won't do anything if there's no sincerity;

sometimes observing and analyzing is better;

as natural behaviour is more spontaneous,

where lies the truth of who a person really are, rather than words".



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We May .....

Friday, January 13, 2012 Xarruc 0 Comments





We May .....


We may look blur but we are not dumb.

We may look innocent but you can't see the dark.

We may say or look stupid to others, but at least we are honest.

We may be happy and cheerful, but you can never tell a lonely heart.

We may say anything that we want unintentionally, but some part it can hurt others.

We may seem alone without people aside, but you dont know, as person may prefer that way as long as it doesn't hurt.

We may be bad and act bad, but at least we never hide anything.


:: Credit :: Copyright of photo/photos is not mine, but belongs to respective owner/owners ::
:: source :: Google ::

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Bungy... Exciting, but.........

Tuesday, January 10, 2012 Xarruc 0 Comments






         I'm a person who love to enjoy outdoors activities. So, setakat abseiling, flying-fox, water rafting and jungle-trecking yang simple and tak menakutkan tu okie saja, tak ada la scary sangat, but of course still nerve-wrecking the higher it is. Aku teringin nak cuba aktiviti ekstrem, macam bungy-jumping. 

         But sejak akhir-akhir ini, kan ada keluar news mengenai Erin Langworthy yang jatuh semasa melakukan bungy jumping makes me think twice. Kalau la ditakdirkan tali tu tersasar ke kanan sket, mesti dah nazak terkena batu-batu sungai tu... Hishhhh, scary... 

          Maybe if there is anyone who loves to challenge himself/herself with this kind of activities should think twice. Is it just satisfaction of adrenaline that you eager for, or it is your life and physical that you care the most? This girl was lucky, but don't expect that you'll have the luck as she had.


Insiden bungy Erin Langworthy




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I Like ...I Love........

Tuesday, January 10, 2012 Xarruc 0 Comments



I like to have fun wherever it is.
I like to travel and sight-seeing also take random photos.
I love my friends whoever they are.







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